A Portal of Pisces

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 On 7th September we experienced a Pisces full moon lunar eclipse inside a Virgo “sandwich” (a Virgo new moon on 23rd August and then another on 21st September). Here’s what I was writing about it then:-

“The full moon eclipse in Pisces is so powerful. Right now many of us can feel quite foggy, uncertain and confused, which is exactly the way that Pisces feels! We will invariably respond with wanting to grasp, hold on, and control.

This is the journey right now. As we delve deeper into spirit, soul and karmic contracts. As we are experiencing, feeling and seeing the deeper truths. As we are humbled.

The greatest transformation is that of finding such a strong connection with the divine that we are able to practice surrender and trust. With that, we are able to find bliss, peace, ecstasy, safety, and fulfilment.

How can you sense the water element right now? How can you practice sensing the safety of the womb of the ocean? And cultivate a willingness to release, expand, and flow? And dissolve the fear with safety, trust and alignment, revealing the truth of your soul's empowerment and divinity.”

And what about now? At this moment on the 21st , as the second new moon in Virgo reaches it’s peak?

Well. I feel like I’ve lived through two years of experience rather than two weeks lol! How about you? Has it been intense?

 

I feel like I took a dive into that watery ocean of the unconscious self and found vulnerability. I feel like I lost who I was, to find myself. I feel like I became dissolved into terrifying nothingness and discovered new clarity and connection.

There has been so much in the unravelling and the learning these last few weeks. This Virgo new moon promises opportunity to understand and integrate.

Some things I have been reflecting deeply on are Pisces themes of  boundaries, empathy, selflessness and humility. Recently, my meditation and energy work have embodied a wonderful paradox.

When we disconnect from reaching outwards for the love, validation and spiritual energy, we find the connection we’ve been looking for. WITH OURSELVES.

Or rather, when we focus on inner work, shadow work and self-connection, our neediness for something from outside of ourselves fades away.

It’s obvious isn’t it? All the great spiritual masters are teaching it. I couldn’t figure out how to get there til now. And I don’t think it was one magical moment, it’s a process, which I am still working with.

This feels like a massive gift from Pisces right now. I am curious to see how this inner learning and practice of a strong sense of self and inner connection will continue to shape my life, my relationships.

My boundaries are better, my sense of connection and peace are more profound, my sense of safety and surrender more intense.

Is this evolution?

Much love for now,

ilana x

 

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